December 2010
5 posts
of course I care
and I’m sorry for talking to you on here rather than texting you back. But please. You can’t talk to me anymore. I’ve been begging you. If I’m ever going to get better I’ve got to stop regressing. Every time we talk all the progress I’ve made goes out the window. I haven’t made very much progress at all. I do care about you and about pep. of course I do. I...
I just have to say
we just talked. After all the screaming last night and everything that reminded me why we can’t work, I still love you. And I still want nothing more than for the both of us to get better so we can be together. But if one of us gets better and the other doesn’t it still won’t work. You are worth more than this. Hold yourself to the value you deserve. It breaks my heart to watch...
my therapist says
that no one is ready for a relationship until they are okay enough with themselves to be alone. Relationships don’t validate people, people validate themselves. Any relationship before this point of enlightenment is doomed from the getgo. It’s a quick fix. Life isn’t truly lived by chasing the next high. It’s lived by accepting your pain while you’re in it, and being...
every time that you contact me
it sets my healing back so far. Please. Please. If you love me like you say… Please under no circumstances short of you or someone in yor family dying should you contact me. We both have shit to work on. I think your victory over tms is great. But that was the least of our problems. I love you very much and I wish you the best. But I can’t have contact with you. You say were soulmates....
RODNEY.
i NEEEED space. please. If we’re ever going to be friends I need space. please. I’m begging you. I know this is hard and I hate it too. But leaving me texts telling me to “man up” isn’t helping anything. Anger isn’t helping anything. I accept that I love you and I accept what was beautiful about our relationship and I accept that you are beautiful. But I have to...