I hate this
since I can’t talk to you and I know you don’t check this I can get this out here. I miss you so much it hurts. Today at dinner someone talked about metro airport. I had to go to my bed and have a breadown. I can still feel you. Still smell you. I’m so angry for the things you’ve done. How you’ve hurt me and ruined our relationship beyond repair. I can’t be with you but I truly believe I will never stop loving you. Maybe you’re my Mr. Big. And we will one day find our way back to eachother and you’ll eventually learn your lesson and get it right. But it’s your refusal to grow up and accept responsibility truly and fully that has ruined us. And I hate it. I hate that this is where we are. Because I miss you unbearably and I cant let go of thinking were soulmates no matter ho hard I try. And I’ll be llike this for months. And you’ll have some new boy and be over me in a week. And I’ll still think you’ve been waitingfor me all that time. Because I always believe your lies about devotion. But you never devoted yourself to me. So I can’t give you myself anymore. And I hate it.
