I was just thinking
about when I started crying while we fooled around that one time and I couldn’t stop. And how you walked out. You left me. It pissed you off that I was sad. You didn’t stay and hold me. You just left. Even though I asked you to stay. I cried for like an hour. Naked. Alone in your bed. And also. Howu yo bought me roses…twce. When you knew I hated them. I had told you on multiple occasions that I hated roses. I like birds of paradise. But you never listened or cared enogh about me to take my interests into account. You may have even said ‘i know you don’t like roses but…’.. THEN WHY BUY THEM? Why not get me the thoughtful and considerate gift I deserved? You didn’t want to get to know or love me and me alone. You weren’t in love with me. this is how and why you cheated and lied to me. what you did shows clearly that you didnt love me. you used me. and you dont miss me. you miss how i boosted your ego and how i was so devoted to you that even after you threatened me at knifepoint multiple times, i stayed.You were in love with how in love with you i was. And that makes me want to die.
